The Hidden Geek

My soul yearns My eyes water I thirst for you I hunger for more Complete me Lord Take control Mold me Like clay to a pot Make use of my life Make my spirit rejoice Clean me like silver So I reflect your image Sharpen me like a sword So I slice through my worries Harden me like diamonds So my strength comes from you I yearn, I cry My soul is weary My spirit is chasing Chasing to be near you Hold me close Cover me under your wings Give rest to my soul Give peace to my spirit Cloth me in your righteousness Your blood has purchased me I long to be used Open my eyes to your love Straighten my road So my foundation will be true I seek and shall find Your presence is by my side Carry me home When my journey is done My Saviour, my true Love A bride I shall be When my time has come

Joy, love, and peace in me The world in chaos but my peace will remain I know the earth is burning but my focus stays It stays on your word, it stays in your hands Your holding me tight, taking my worries away I'm wrapped in your arms, your breath in me You tell me to wait, you tell me to pray The worries leave and your presence appears Keep my heart pure and keep my mind clear So I keep seeking you till the day that I leave I'm a traveler here, my home is elsewhere I'm just here to bring your kingdom to reign The Lord is my Shephard, he guides through the night The darkness will flee when your by my side My nights will be peaceful My days will be bright My suffering can't compare to the pain you took of mine My sins you forgave, by blood I was cleansed No longer a sinner but a Saint in your name Rejoice with me friends, rejoice for the Lord He saved me from sin and save you he shall He is merciful and pure, clean as can be The judge of the world and my king he shall be

     So lately I haven't posted any blogs because I was more focused on my small YouTube channel where I create art and preach about what I learn from the Lord in my own way.       In doing so, I'm kept busy creating new content and forcing more on what the Lord wants me to teach and not just to talk about him randomly. When I'm creating those videos, there is not much need in blogging because I can explain everything with my own voice vs. Writing it all out.       But lately, I have put my channel on hold because I recently moved across the country and have no room or space to keep creating and recording my art. Since then, I have seen myself drift further from Christ and being occupied with life, earning a living, preparing for my future plans and so on. I will not say that being prepared for life and setting goals is a bad things but when it keeps you focused on life and living and unfocused on Christ, then some changes need to b...

We make mistakes We carry our faults We hate, we yell, we scream We push and shove We curse each other Even saying "you can't do it. You won't make it" It's still cursing. We take what we want And say what we want We make sure we have enough first Before giving to others We fight all the time We feel sorry for ourselves Even though the world Is crashing all around us How can we So broken and violent And hateful and slothful Ever demand so much from others? We don't have the right To just take and take And rarely give We cry and ask "Where is God?" "Why won't he listen?" "Why doesn't he do something?" "And why does he let all this stuff go on?" The truth is We push him away We keep pushing And demand our way And then wonder why he's gone The world he created Doesn't even want him Then it wonders where he's at It wonders Where he went Or if he even exists How do we expect someone to stay In a place we d...

This last year was fun to say the least. It was also difficult, arguably the most difficult one I've had in a while. This last year brought me lots of hardships, heartbreaks, anxiety, loneliness, pain, struggles, defeat, sadness, stress like never before, worry and the list goes on and on... But it also brought tons of new opportunities, change, i learned so much, I've seen so much, had adventures and explored myself more than anything. I left my comfort zone so much that i hate being in it. I made tons of new friends and left a few down the road. I cried more tears this year than any other but i felt more joy and peace than before. My relationship with God was a bit rocky to be honest but i know it will never be perfect so i'm going to keep growing still. I changed myself more than anything and my love for others and for my friends and family and church has grow as well. There's just too much that happened and if i write it all here, you guys would stop reading ...

When I was little, I always had this image of a rectangular box in my mind. The box was just there in a dark room and light was only around the box and I stood next to the box. Every time someone came by, they were curious about my box so I would open it up and reach in. I would grab out an item from the box and hand it to them with a smile. The person would then take the item and look at it and play with it and in the end they either threw it or broke it or damaged it and then they left. Leaving the damaged item on the floor. I would get down on my knees and pick up the broken pieces and sweep them back into the box with tears in my eyes. As time passed, others would come and being curious and I would show them an item from the box but over and over again, they would just give it back damaged and I would cry while putting the pieces in my box. I started becomes hesitant to open the box. Started being more cautious. People would come and sometimes I never opened the box and after t...

Dear Jesus, Dear Jesus, My Savior, my friend. I come to your presence to seek as I am my trust and my shield you are my right hand forever in me, I keep your commands I come to your presence, I come seeking truth you see through my weakness and help me bear fruit I rest my head steady on you grasps my roots, I vanish in me to bring out all of you I come to take rest, and refuge in you I come to bear witness of your healings too your power so great, your love oh so strong in me they shine through like a spark in the dark glorify not me but you every day and keep me humble for these mighty days "God's warrior i am" to you I will say "strong and aware for each blazing glare" the night I pray loud the day I sleep out to break all the forces of witches here now hold me tight and guide my heart so i may be useful when hardships crawl out praises I'll sing the stories I'll share of how you helped seeds become mighty tre...

You fill my heart You calm my soul Your spirit gives me patience Where I walk There you go Lighting my path to you Darkness can't harm me The shadows are gone Your peace fills every corner Enemies can't touch me Rumors don't budge me I stand steady on my rock so true Praise be to God Praise to the Almighty Who filled the earth with his creations You gave authority to man And broke the chains of sin The slaves are now your children How wonderful is my God The God of the Bible The God of all creation I will praise your name forever more Be in me A light forever A poem to my God and Savior Jesus Christ 😀 Praise and Glory belong to him alone!

Humans... We make the mistakes. We carry our faults. We hate, we yell, we scream. We push and shove away. We curse each other. Even saying "you can't do it. there's no way." It's still cursing. Still showing your hate. We take what we want and say what we want. We make sure we have enough first before giving to others. We fight all the time and we feel sorry for ourselves even though the world is crashing all around us. How can we, imperfect beings, so broken and slothful, ever demand so much from others? We don't have the right to just take and take...but rarely give a dime and step out in good faith. We cry and ask "Where is God? Why won't He listen? Why doesn't he do something? And why does he let all this stuff go on?" The truth is...We pushed him away. We keep pushing him away and demand our way and then we wonder why he's gone. Why he's left us to our pain. I had a question asked to me once. I was asked what else can o...

Let me just start out by putting a verse before you. Matthew 7:13-14 "Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it." The narrow gate is small and leads to life. Almost everyone can agree with this verse that the gate to life is narrow and only a few find it. But how narrow is it? We constantly think that to go through this gate its all about rules we can and cant do and to get through that narrow path, you must be a good person and believe in Jesus and so on. But what if it wasnt about the rules we follow or just believing in Jesus that leads us through that gate? Jesus said even the demons believe in one God but that doesnt mean they are saved. James 2:19 "You say you have faith, for you believe that there is one God. Good for you! Even the demons believe this, and they tremble in terror." Wh...

This is a video I made back a while ago. I explain a mistake I made one time in my Christian walk but the Lord taught me a lesson through it. Im not saying to make mistakes but whenever you do make a mistake, learn from it. I hope this video helps someone out and not to be so down when you have made a mistake in your walk. Just repent and get up and keep walking again. Your fall is not the end, your end is when you give up and stop walking. God Bless You All

Die to Self      And live for Christ Die to Ambition      And live for Hope Die to Pleasure      And live for Life The life that is gained      In the one who Created Die to Idolatry      And to Wisdom of Man Die to Hatred      And Jealousy all days Die to Wickedness      That carries the Proud Die to Evil      So your not Satan's Slaves Die and gain Christ      For He is above Everything Die to your Needs      For He will take care of Them Live for Christ       For He died for your Transgressions Live to be Free      From the chains of Wrong Ambitions The worlds not the Problem      Not the evil one Either The problem is You      For you live for Worldly Traditions You gain all the World      But lose that which Matters Y...

So I have a story to share with you all today. The Bible teaches us always to be humble and not howdy. "Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love." Ephesians 4:2 I could bring up more verses but i won't. Those who read the Bible constantly and understand it's messages will know that being humble is essential for our daily walk with Christ. It's what brings us to our low points in life sometimes so God may use us or it's what helps us forgive each other and it even teaches us when we become humble. Jesus was always humble when he came to earth for us. He was the most humble out of us all. A King who dies for His people. You can't beat that, that's for sure. But I wanted to share a personal story of how God humbled me just yesterday and it was not something i ever really expected to do. It was actually pretty tough to do so and i felt really low to do it but in the end it taught me a lesson on humility and k...

Dear God, You saved me from my wounds. You helped me in my weakness, You held me when i fell and lifted me back up when i was stubborn. I cry to you in my pain and i cry in my anguish. I call to you this day to save me once again, To restore my faith and heal my spirit. To wash away my tears and strengthen me up again. I pray you keep me safe from my enemies as i lay to sleep every night. i pray you break me when i'm prideful and humble me before you. I pray you give me strength when i cant stand anymore and use me even when i feel unworthy. Keep Your eyes on me always and watch over my family and friends as well. teach me even though it may be hard. Grab my life and restore it to yourself. Bring me no glory but take it for yourself. You knew me from my childhood, When i didn't even know myself you made me. You held me tight like a mother in her arms. You breathed life into these bones and gave sight to my very eyes. You gave me more than i deserved ...

What a weird question right? "Can you be too serious about God?" The reason I asked this is because sometimes it feels like people tell me that I need to calm down or I'm taking things too seriously. I don't like to curse at all, I don't believe having tattoos is beneficial to God at all even if you have a tattoo of a cross or a a Bible verse or someone or something you cherish (which we can tal k about this subject later if you want to now my full opinion on this). I don't really celebrate most holidays if any at all... I take my Bible reading pretty seriously where as if I'm not understanding something, i will stop and pray or talk to someone or to God about parts in the Bible because i don't want to read trough it like a book and nothing more, I try to pray more often lately because it fills my spirit up and give me spiritual strength in God to keep walking and fighting for His kingdom, I hate perverted jokes even though in the past i use...

You say that you love Me,      But you show Me not. You say that you serve Me,      yet your deeds are not found. Your heart is far from Me,      you run far away. You sing to Me praises,      But the words don't awake. You say you feel good      in My presence each time But I want to tell you,      You're living a lie. In My presence you have never been,      you never knew Me,      not now and not then. You testify your feelings,      But you don't allow me in      to touch your whole Spirit      and fill you from within. How can you love me?      You do evil in my sight      and say "God can't see me, He's not here". Oh what a lie you live,      What blasphemy you do! My fury is burning,     ...

The title to this blog might sound crazy to some and for others they might already know this. But the more i live this life trying and striving to do what the Lord asks of me and wants of me, i realize that God does not need me. Not at all. When i'm disobedient or thinking I'm better than others, or when i slip a little away from what God wants or even when i do obey Him and strive to do the very very best that i possible can do... The following statement it true and occurs in my mind often.                                                  "GOD DOESN'T NEED YOU!" He does not need you to do His will or to obey Him. If you don't obey Him and you turn from Him, He can just give the work that He planned to give to you to someone else. It's that simple. Let me give you an example: Let's say you have this job and something about this job doesn't please you. ...

Those in the wrong      will learn with time, Eventually they will bow before Him. His might has no end,      who can hold Him back?      Who can hold God's Judgement back? He will come like the thief in the night,      When not one suspects it. Who can know His coming and going?      And who can stop Him? For the strength of the Lord      Is mightier then the beasts of the fields,     or the birds of the sky. His wisdom knows no bounds, His sham is never found      for He has none. When people cry for explanations, God gives none, He needs not to,      For who can tell Him what to do      with the things He's created? He is above all and never below Though humans forget Him and in their minds they scoff;      "Who is God that He can judge us?      And who is God that He can outd...

What if you knew Jesus would come back in less than 20 years? Would anything change in you? Would you start seeking Him more and building a right and righteous relationship with Him? Or would you just relax knowing you had roughly 20 years before you give your life to Him? Would you stay calm or would you worry? Would you live still in sin or would you repent and leave it all behind to follow Jesus? Would you laugh at the one who told you this or would you take their message as a warning? I can say for a fact that not one person knows when the coming of the Lord Jesus will be here. When He will finally return to reap His harvest and to separate the lambs from the goats. Matthew 25: 31-32 "When the Son of Man comes in his glory, and all the angels with him, he will sit on his glorious throne. All the nations will be gathered before him, and he will separate the people one from another as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats." Did you know that the mark of th...