How God Draws Me Near (Blog Post)

     So lately I haven't posted any blogs because I was more focused on my small YouTube channel where I create art and preach about what I learn from the Lord in my own way. 

    In doing so, I'm kept busy creating new content and forcing more on what the Lord wants me to teach and not just to talk about him randomly. When I'm creating those videos, there is not much need in blogging because I can explain everything with my own voice vs. Writing it all out. 

     But lately, I have put my channel on hold because I recently moved across the country and have no room or space to keep creating and recording my art. Since then, I have seen myself drift further from Christ and being occupied with life, earning a living, preparing for my future plans and so on. I will not say that being prepared for life and setting goals is a bad things but when it keeps you focused on life and living and unfocused on Christ, then some changes need to be made. 

     Back in Washington where I lived, I felt very dead as time went on and a change in scenery and lifestyle was what prompted me to move so I can focus on my health, wellbeing, and decide more serious life choices. It helped to move because I feel more alive and motivated to keep living and trying new things, discovering new places and meeting new people who will otherwise never know I existed. The move itself was an act of God if I'm not mistaken. 

     Let me explain. God uses our situations and even personalities so move us where he wants us to be. For axample: he uses our wants and desires to change our perspectives on life and our situations to grow us to be stronger. If you feel like life is too big to handle, He will teach you to lean on him. If your worries are drowning you, He teaches you to refocus your mind on him and the problems will be less burdensome. Every situation has a purpose but the faster you realize this, the faster you can grow.

     I realized this and God used it to help me move to Tennessee where I'm currently staying with my sister and her family. I'm not sure how long I will stay here but for now, my situation is helping me grow and become just a bit stronger then I once was.

     Now that you know my situation, let's explore more about how I'm learning to grow and how God is using my situation and mindset to bring himself closer to me. 

     First thing is through Patience. When I first put my mind on moving, I had this idea that everything will change and my life will be more abundant and maybe I'll even find my future spouse quickly. But the reality is that God doesn't want to find someone right off the bat. First he wants me to loosen my mindset on certain topics. I have learned so much while being with my sister and her family and my eyes have opened up to more serious matters that I otherwise wouldn't have seen if I stayed in WA. These mindsets are personal mindsets so I won't be sharing them here with you all but one of which was about how the world is destroying itself and how it is important for us to sharpen our swords for the battle that's yet to come when Christ arrives.

     The second way he is nearing himself to me is by showing me the details of what he does. What I mean is that when he brings you somewhere and you fully trust him, he will provide. You may not see it at first but he will let you see them if you ask. I have seen how God uses my sister's situation with her family to bring them physical gifts from wood, to animals, to clothes and material for their new home they are building to just strengthening them spiritually as a family. For me, he provided me with a place to stay, a job after just a few weeks, and almost like a guide book on how to start eating and living more healthy because I used to have some serious health issues in the past (which I can discuss in another blog post some other time).

     Personally, I have been asking the Lord to teach me how to grow more spiritually and what he wants me to do and learn. One new thing that I have noticed is that he is starting to show me who to stay away from and guards me against potential "spouse matches" that I otherwise would have went for. He has protected me from many men that I never knew were not a good fit for me until everything is torn apart. Then I see the reasons why the Lord kept me apart from them. 

     The last interesting part that I have noticed is that he took me away from my YouTube channel for the time being and has now brought me here to write this post. My YouTube channel does talk about the Lord and I want it to always focus on God but because I'm in a situation where I can't create content, I randomly stumbled upon my blog post after being away for so long. I completely forgot about posting here and really wanted to help others to grow in Christ, know more about Christ and to preach and talk again because that's also how I grow. When I'm creating content for YouTube or focused on my blog here, I focus more on God. I try to keep my eyes on him to know what it is that He wants me to write and say and not just to create content. By doing this, it helps me keep my eyes where they need to be and learn to become more wise so that I never cause someone else to stumble in the Lord but reveal the truth even though the way I speak and say these things may be very blunt and straight forward. Although he is also teaching me to share his word with more love and compassion, I don't like to sugar-coat the truth. 

   

    When it comes to feeling loved and sharing the love of Christ, I have always felt a sense of being a burden or even unloved or un-cared for but that mindset is what breaks me down and sometimes I let those thoughts that the devil has placed on me to ruin what I must do for Christ.

     So, I'm here to also say, if you ever have a bad mindset about yourself or feel like a burden or that your not good enough, ask God to teach you to change that train of thought into something he can use to grow you stronger. Don't let the thoughts of the devil and the lies he whispers to you to get in the way of what God wants. Find a way to grow closer and nearer to him by talking about him or reading his word, or getting together with like minded believers so that you may all educate each other and grow.

     God bless you all and thank you for reading. I hope this post can encourage you all.